Saturday, July 28, 2012

Awkward

Feeling awkward is one of the big things that go along with being an intended mom (at least for me).  Maybe other intended moms are made of steel, but I definitely feel awkward and uncomfortable in certain situations.  Here are some of the ones that have caused me to feel weird recently.

  • Having my recently hired twenty-something temp assistant say to me, "You don't look pregnant at all.  How far along are you?"  Me: "Oh....that's because I'm not pregnant.  I'm having a baby via surrogate."  Her:  "Oh, wow!  How long does she have to keep the baby after it's born?  Y'know for breastfeeding and stuff."  *sigh*  I just didn't really feel like explaining it all at that moment.  I wanted her to do her work.  
  • Yesterday N and I went to a family daycare to look into the possibility of putting her in daycare next June.  (Yes, I said next June.  And yes, I'm having to look now so that we can get on a....waiting list.)  There was another couple there, and she was obviously pregnant. I was obviously not and wearing a close-fitting maxi skirt to prove it.  She kind of gave me a strange look...or maybe I imagined it.  Either way, I ended up blurting out that we were due in Dec via surrogate.  #awesome
  • Then last evening, we went out to a guy acquaintance's birthday party, and kept getting hugs and "OMG Congratulations!"  Thankfully I'd changed into a baggy dress (partially so that I could avoid just those types of explanations that I knew would be needed with people I'm not super-close with in a public setting).  Either way, I felt AWKWARD. 
This is the type of thing that happens a lot.  I know it shouldn't bother me, but I just have a hard time going into it all the time.  My mom (and MIL) have had an even harder time, so I've told them just to defer them to me.  Maybe I should create little business cards to hand out.  It would be so much easier.  :-)

5 comments:

  1. Hey Leah your blog is great
    We are going through the exact same journey at the moment and it's great to read your stories. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Thanks for reading!! I'm glad that you can feel like someone is going through the same thing. I have the same feelings whenever I read someone else's blog! Do you have one? How far along are you? Best, Leah

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  2. Nope, TOTALLY not by yourself.. A lot of people know I had a partial hysterectomy, BUT strangers and people we aren't really close with = awkward! What I tell depends on how I am feeling! I'm with you, we need business cards! Or shirts to explain for us ;-)

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    1. Hey lady. Today has been a long one. And yesterday was so freaking hard. Glad to have your smiling face pop up on my screen!! *mwah!*

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  3. Well, at least you are thin. People who didn't know we adopted and we hadn't seen in awhile would say....awe you look good for just having a baby! Euphemism for you still have a lot of baby weight to lose. Talk about a real tough one to explain or laugh off. You can always give them my number. I'll run block. Love you

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